It's Over

I guess before it really even got started. I started cramping really bad last night and soon the spotting turned to full on bleeding. I followed up with an ultrasound today, only to find an empty uterus. Looks like my body can do something right (if I would not have passed everything, I would have had to have surgery). The doctor thinks this is another "fluke" and will not test Jason and I for underlying chromosomal problems until we have another miscarriage. It seems that this is the industry standard, as insurance does not consider those tests "necessary" until you have lost 3 babies in a row. Seems a little wrong to me. I am, however going to get a RLP (repeat loss panel), which will test me for clotting disorders and other things that can commonly cause repeat miscarriages. Jason and I are doing really well. Although I loved this peanut as much as I loved my bean, I did not get the opportunity to "get to know" him/her like I did the bean. Since I was only 7 weeks and miscarried at home, they could not test the embryo which means we will never truly know what happened. We have the green light to try again after one cycle and are very prepared to get back on the saddle, so to speak. Hopefully the third time is the charm! God knows our hearts and knows how badly we want to become parents. I know he is going to make something beautiful out of our suffering, and I think that something beautiful is going to be a healthy baby.