Two years ago was one of the most trying times of my life. It almost seems like a lifetime ago, yet thinking about it brings me right back to that day. 2/18/2009 we found out that our precious baby boy was not coming home with us. At 19 weeks gestation he was taken from us and born into Heaven.
Jason and I were at a fork in the road. We had two very clear choices: move on and trust God or stay put and be mad at God. Thankfully we both wanted to move on and trust that God had different plans for our family. Don't get me wrong, I was mad, hurt, sad (you name it, I felt it). However, I knew and really believed that was not how our story was going to end. I knew God had bigger plans (even if I doubted them sometimes, remember this post I wrote just 10 days before I found out I was pregnant with Cayden).
As I write this I am listening to Cayden sleep soundly on the baby monitor and one particular scripture is coming to mind. "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus -Phillippians 4: 6-7." I am so thankful for everything we went through, because it brought us Cayden. All the answered AND unanswered prayers led us to this perfect little boy. All along God had a plan, a perfect plan.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Friday, January 28, 2011
Life Lately
It seems like it has been forever since I have posted here. I have no idea if people even still read this blog.
To be honest, I am not really sure what to do with it. My friend Jackie is a great mommy blogger, me not so much. I will probably at least keep it active so that others struggling with infertility (yes even though we are about as fertile as they come our recurrent miscarriages label us infertile...weird) can come here for a story with a happy ending. I know I loved reading blogs that ended in a healthy, take home baby when we were in the thick of it. They gave me hope when I needed it most.
Then again, I may get a second wind and suddenly become a great blogger, who knows! In the meantime here a few pictures of our almost 5 month old (time really does fly when you're having fun).
To be honest, I am not really sure what to do with it. My friend Jackie is a great mommy blogger, me not so much. I will probably at least keep it active so that others struggling with infertility (yes even though we are about as fertile as they come our recurrent miscarriages label us infertile...weird) can come here for a story with a happy ending. I know I loved reading blogs that ended in a healthy, take home baby when we were in the thick of it. They gave me hope when I needed it most.
Then again, I may get a second wind and suddenly become a great blogger, who knows! In the meantime here a few pictures of our almost 5 month old (time really does fly when you're having fun).
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Happy Halloween!
We tried really hard to get a cute, posed Halloween picture but as you can see from below Cayden was really uninterested. But, we had a great time passing out candy to all the cute Trick or Treaters and Cayden really had no idea all the fun he missed!
Monday, October 25, 2010
Pumpkin Patch
Cayden went to his very first pumpkin patch a few days ago. We rode a hayride and picked out pumpkins. He was not very interested in taking pictures so whats below are the best ones we took of the day. I can't wait until next year when he can run around and play!
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