Two years ago was one of the most trying times of my life. It almost seems like a lifetime ago, yet thinking about it brings me right back to that day. 2/18/2009 we found out that our precious baby boy was not coming home with us. At 19 weeks gestation he was taken from us and born into Heaven.
Jason and I were at a fork in the road. We had two very clear choices: move on and trust God or stay put and be mad at God. Thankfully we both wanted to move on and trust that God had different plans for our family. Don't get me wrong, I was mad, hurt, sad (you name it, I felt it). However, I knew and really believed that was not how our story was going to end. I knew God had bigger plans (even if I doubted them sometimes, remember this post I wrote just 10 days before I found out I was pregnant with Cayden).
As I write this I am listening to Cayden sleep soundly on the baby monitor and one particular scripture is coming to mind. "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus -Phillippians 4: 6-7." I am so thankful for everything we went through, because it brought us Cayden. All the answered AND unanswered prayers led us to this perfect little boy. All along God had a plan, a perfect plan.
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